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I haven't been blogging for a mighty long time...

Ha.. I remb when the blog craze was at his peak, I wrote entries almost everyday! Sometimes even 3 entries in a day! hahaz..

hahaaz... Now this shows, that I am not a writing kinda person..

But anyway!

I was just thinking about what Su Quan mentioned earlier.... He was jus thinking about his ups and downs of this year... And guess wad? 2008 is barely 10 days away.

He jus kinda told me there were more downs than ups for that year... And truth is, I guess, my year wasn't as different as his also!
But was quick of me to think of something positive... I just blurt out... "If u can count all the bads, and u're still alive, than prolly most of it u have resolved... So shouldn't that be a good?" "learning points ya?"

I was actually kinda surprised that I would say stuff like that...

Fact is that, this 2 months.... Has really been a rough one.... I did alot of bad stuff, and I realize I changed quite a bit also... Lost abit of connections with God for a while... But eventually got it fixed up before Christmas...

I wonder if my relationship with God has grown stronger this year? I expect my 2 years of being christian is really 2 years, not 2 sets of 1 year.... I really prayed about it...

Den God just gave me some really whacked vision... But... I am still working on it I guess....

I am not sure how does my external shows, but inside me sure feels different... In fact, I am rather concerned... I hate this weakness I have here... Not sercure with myself, and God, always depending on other people and leaders feedback to pave my road with God.... Irritates me alot.... But thank God, I got over it.... I know all the basic stuff, like, u're not running after/for man, but for God... Etc. Etc.
But it was just knowledge... didn't know how to apply it, where, why? should I? no..........
Then all of a sudden, God just answered the prayer... Tada... I realized that, being over-sensitive about wad other people thinks of U is seriously O*@&$(# me up... So I jus kinda chill...

Cool..

Yeap...

-gone

 

The End?