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I'm having some kinda migrane headache now... Is really irritating the shit out of me...

My week is still challenging as ever, and wonder as I begin to wonder if God is doing anything... I realize, it's not him....
It's ME

I think I have been rather affect by the going ons', and the "HOW AM I Feeling?" That I ignored God, I had like a kick in the head when Ben was teaching the thing about prayer... That I realize i prolly took him for granted.

Frankly, this week, I was expecting C.G to be like the regular screw ups, or worse, I might create a new record in the worst C.G ever, I was qutie ill prepared, C.G attendence wasn't really good, and worse of all, I wasn't really in the mood to be part of this gathering, I wasn't feeling so hyped in doing this C.G.

I was desperate when the C.G started, I was restless, my attitude wasn't in sync with God's and I was just like one of the distracting one, that CLs' all wanna kick out, or have a good lashing afterwards... Prolly my CL didn't know it, but i was kinda worried bout my SD, coz in the midst of all the beginning event, i was like "GOSH! Wad's point 2?!" LOL...

When worship came, I can feel the resistence, that's the little demon in me, but Thank GOD! If there was like the Angel and Demon side of me, my Angel side was having one of those "LIMIT BREAK" brink of death, whoop u to hell KO moves, and the move, i think it's called, "PRAYING DESPERATELY" God came, pick that attitude up, and place another one, before I knew it, I had so many things i wanted to speak to the guys, and i didn't have "BIG BANG" verses, all in my mind were random "my own words" I was like "Damn, I am no Nel, she can do that kinda thing, she can say like PRAY! and I will jus fall to my knees, but how many times have I tried that, but instead I get the feeling everybody's staring at this joker talkin gibberish?" and Ben still showed me the "say something signal" I was really turned off, but God rebuked me, and gave me some sense of reassurance, before I knew it, I did it again, I was really talkin quite smoothly, and I wasn't quite sure wad I was saying, I was startin to worship in spirit, was kinda hyping everybody(wasn't quite sure).. I am not sayin I am getting good at this kinda thing, but i certainly didn't feel like STEWART TAN, I was kinda like.. "STOP MAN, STOP!! WOOOOW, U're over-doing it here, PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER *slaps self* OMG!!

I really knew that it was the spirit, when i called for Him, i knew God is already here, God was aiding me, Stewart certainly can't do that now, prolly in 10 years time, but surely not now... God was there, and when I was giving teaching, I had the same problem, when i start, i was really like GOD!! Den afterwards, I started a whole bunch of gibberish, alot of it, not part of my planned script, and was really crazy..

I wanna thank God for the creators of LETTER FROM HELL, it's a fantastic presentation of how real HELL is, and the life on earth is a short and unpredictable one, and whether we die as a legacy, or jus another statistic (Quote, BEN) is all up to us...



-Thank you God for being ther when I called for U..

-AMEN

 

The End?