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Dear Lord

Life is so precious, lord, let me know better to appreciate my own life, and use me more to help other people through their life.

-gone

 

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「 found it on 2:41 AM 」

Blistered hand, thanks to the mooncake..

feeling mighty sleepy now..

Lord, bless me with stronger hands tomorrow... LOL

Super random post..

YAY... freak tired!!!!


Eyes closing... Brain dead... Mulfunction.. system crashing....

-dead

 

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「 found it on 6:11 PM 」

Stress ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stress stress...

Jump conference is the best... If there's a JUMP2... i urge all of u niggas to go.... Seriously

But also becoz of that... I think my expectation of myself rose.... It's not a expectation too far fetch'd for anybody to reach... Jus a lil too challenging for me..


Jia You... do welll for Wed's C.G

 

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Was a great day...

But really kinda screwed up to feel a lil messed up now...
Not moody...
I know the day is good, a lil more than jus good, GREAT! I am not sad or anything... I dun think i will bite anybody now... Jus...... U know sense of confusion? pondering???

Damn... Pop that tot out...

I need sleep...



-Gone.

 

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「 found it on 3:16 AM 」

Recently i got addicted to 2 new songs... Both are really emotional stuff... so try to kill yourself after listening to them.... okok.. just kidding..

Jus dun read too deep into them if u're really emo.

I think i'll address them in a chronological order.. (damn dat's too formal man)

Wait.. before i start talking about them... Go kill yourself and stop reading this post if u're a simpleton, and wanna look for songs to make u look cool and complicated... These are sincere, straight to the heart stuff...

simpletons and emo's, click the X at the top right corner, and go do something fruitful..

With that!

ok...




1st


What Sarah Said - Death Cab for cutie...

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE LYRICS
"What Sarah Said"

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad newsAnd then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads

But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..
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This song was introduced to me by Chi Lam, in fact the whole band was intro'ed by him... I heard of this band before, but didn't know much about it, neva heard their songs... At first.. when i heard this song.. Not very impressive... Especially when it is suppose to be a Indie Pop band... They're a lil draggy to be one... and is not really emo... But afta Chi Lam briefly explain the song to me... I was kinda taken aback, impressed by the content of the song, and the perspective they took... When i came back, and read the lyrics seriously.. Wa.... I jus keep falling in love with the song... I'm not a sadist.. But I really thought that they potray the dreadful feeling, and the whole feeling as u wait outside the ICU, and jus know in your mind that the person inside, is someone u care alot, and unless there's gonna a spark from God, he/she is as good as dead...

The way this song is performed... It really isn't like any other showoff band... The stuff doesn't sound too rock like, dreaful, or like MCR, draggy, doesn't give u the "OH MY GOD! JUS KILL ME!" Feel... I like the way Azri describes this song when first heard it.. "It's kinda the singer is telling a story, or talking..." Thought the way the song is played is kinda complicated(that is if u hear clearly, every instrument).. They dun deliberately make it sound flamboyant or too emotional.. Is neither vocal, nor instrumental driven.. They really wanna bring out the lyrics...




Second one is

SOPHIA - NERINA PALLOT

5 o' clock and a fire escape symphony,
Spilling out across the road and the square,
And the sky's the same as your own, do you think of me?
Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves, reach you, there?
After the rain, in the lonely hours he haunts me, calling out,
Again and again.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning.
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

And now I walk these streets like a stranger in my home town,
Learn the language, form the words when I speak,
But he changed me, I'm his ghost since he came around,
And now I count the hours and the days in the weeks.

Passion and silence,
Every word, every line, a measure,
It's the science of the soul,
And his books, they breathe a reason and now I want to know...

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning,
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

You, with your new born eyes,
Have you ever loved a man like I love him?
Do you hurt but still feel alive, like never before?

Oh, Sophia, Sophia.
Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning,
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.
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This song... Was intro'ed to me by Daniel.... I guess he was tryin to prevent me from getting too hooked up with What Sarah said, den send me this song.. LOL...

This song.. u seriously need to understand the lyrics... I did some research about this singer and song... This song was award for it's lyrics, and the reason seems rather obvious..

Is rather abstract, and also!!!! Doesn't have have a overkill feel... Though there's that longing feel, but u can feel it reach skin deep, into your heart... And not jus swirl all over your mind... Most love songs jus kinda cry about something shallow, good topic, but shallow content...

But not this....

Try to guess who Sophia is.... If u can figure it out... "BOOOOM, whole new perspective" - Daniel

I dunno the right answer to who sophia is... Coz is not stated anywhere.. so jus let your imagination run...



These are the 2 songs... they're really good... And now... once again.. I wanna warn u dudes again.. DO NOT TRY TO ACT COOL BY BLASTING THIS 2 songs, or act like u know this song and explain shit about it... And if u are emo... do not listen to them... U will prolly jus kill yourself...


So get lost simpletons and emo's... Seriously.. I'll skin u if u abuse these 2 songs


-Gone

 

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Lord bless the anniversary tomorrow..

Make it wild!!!

 

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14th Sept

Nth much happened during the afternoon, jus know it was raining, and after an exhausting Evo Retreat, sleeping for almsot 11 hours seems the best thing ever happened to me..

Evening... Wa... Dunno wad took Azri and Kana so long.... So decided to find food to eat....

God really made life interesting by making me cook 2 packs of noodles, for 3 people, and before jus before i was about to sit down and eat... Azri called...

He's there already... SIAN..


LOL... I jus chiong la, and it really wasn't smart to cook the kimchi noodle(which is bloody spicy), and try to drink down it down when it is still piping hot...
Every thing was really frantic and high speed man.... I realized i started to sweat like some kinda melting ICE.... Jus sweat man..


Reach there... Saw Azri Ben and Kana... Playing with some little kids... Look like those kinda that would shape singapore.... (into some kinda screwed up ah beng society)

Kana is super cool man.... Seriously!! Whacked!!! He's pulling all kinds of stunt... Really smooth...
He's way above wad I expected...

After they were done... We played a 6 on 7? 6 of us 7 of them. Full court match...

I was jus fooling around at first.. .Talked alot... But I go started to get really annoyed when one of those kids... one in Black... started calling me BOY!! I was like dood... "DOOD, I'm 18! If they call me that 2 years ago.. yea maybe i understand.. I'm 18! I still have to go through this? And come on... How old are u? 10?"

I tried to tell him man.. He dun seem to get it.... Maybe his 10 years on earth was spent on swearing and eating shit... He dunno wad it means by "Dude, u're annoying"

"Dun call u boy den wad? Gay?"

Dood... U wanna eat Mr. Left or Right? Or would u like to meet Mr. Turning Kick that broke roofing tiles??

As I continue to play... Though I did pull a few stunts... But I wasn't impressed with my performance... My mel side was building up... I can see obvious flaws in our plays... And I was getting annoyed at everybody... den I jus got pissed off... I guess it's better to open the boiling kettle, den close it tight and let it shoot and spray all over... So I jus remained pissed off for another half an hour or so.. LOL...

I think overall was pretty cool la... I tried getting even with him.. Punk him as much... But now thinking about it.. "Damn dawg... U're really childish!"

Who cares.. hope it doesn't piss him off too much.... my pride need some trimming bah.. LOL

Game ended, realize that Lik and Wei Xiong seems a lil screwed.. When they arrive at my place, wa can see Wei Xiong sleeping into some kinda delirious state.. hahahaz.... Hope he's ok.

Went for Sauna... Didn't realize we actually spent nearly an hour inside.... LOL...

Den went to eat... Cool.. but my stomach still not satified... The grace for the food didn't work... I prayed that the fried oyster omellette would help clear my sore throat!! GOD!!!! U PUNK'D ME!!!! hahahahaz....

Sent everybody to their way home... Den walk back with Ben... I think he's a lil zonk too... But amazingly... He still can take the time to debate with me about english... Command of english? Actually I dun really know wad's it all about...hahahaz...



K la..


End around here





-GONE-

 

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「 found it on 3:03 AM 」

Lord.... I am amazed by your creations...

I am reminded how blessed I am by you...

The more I give, I know the more u will add upon me...


^_^

 

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「 found it on 4:16 AM 」

I want.. freedom to express..

Dun be afraid to come talk to me bout it...

dun beat around the bush

 

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Aww damn man..

It's 3:18am.. And I really gotta blog this, or else I'll feel like knocking myself on the head..


Kao..

As usual la, jus walk back afta taking NR7 with Azri.. I gotta walk back alone, through areas that's really quiet, kinda errie... the kind, if somebody jus pops out and mug u... U also LAN LAN, kinda road...

Den gotta walk through the HDB flats.. which is not so scary liao... Den reach the Kopitiam, which is a lil more scary... but not so bad..

But walking alone... at the beginning, like when the path still feels new? U know? can't help but to get a lil goosebumpy, gay hair standing and stuff...

But afta walking so many times... Aiya, season liao la.... No kick.....

But... I was talking to God... Or rather, telling? Complaining? to him.. GOD! I WANT A SPIRIT KINDA THING! I miss that kinda thing man, people are discrening, can feel wrong spirit, chasing demons.. GOD! Why am I like a lil dry now??? Although u do sometimes like *ting*! A word for u.. But... come on... Cooler gifts? Sensing? Radar?


Ok.. so, u see tonight... I was just walking back.. 3am? Played Stolen-D/C on my MP3.... Den try to sing... was really trying to improve the way i sing it... And since it's quiet, no one's around me.. i can sing pretty loud... As I was walking through the HDB... i stop singing... Den jus listen... and mouth the words... As i walk to near the Kopitiam.. .I tot i saw something, a large humanmoid figure.. But i kinda blink, realize.. Eh... jus some fitness corner machine la... Mus be becoz i neva wear specs... so it has to be me....
Den continue walk... But within a few steps... I felt really dizzy... My sight wasn't exactly blurred, but felt a lil delirious... and my bag felt heavy.. something was pulling me back and down... I was like ?!?!?! Damn... Of all nights, it has to be this night?!

I was a kinda feeling i dun remb myself feeling...

I thought back, and remb the testimony of this adult guy in Hope that said "in Jesus name! Go away!"

I tried... Well.. it doesn't work.. Den i was like... JESUS!! WHERE ARE U!?!?!?! Den i pray.. started to pray quite a lot of nonsense as i walk..Like God, come on la, come out... Help me.. Hear me man...

Den i remb the "prayer" i mention earlier that i had with God... I was like.. "DOH!!!!!" Why did I say that?!

Prayer failed... So plan B.... Play christian song.... And of all songs i scrolled.. i had to listen to the one i like the least... Shout your fame... I was like.. DOOOD... i'm a worship kinda guy.... U give me a coperate praise?! But surprisingly... it kinda worked a lil.. My brain was less spinny... Den just continue to walk all the way back..


LOL..


Fact is.. I am not pissed or anything.. Not angry at God, not scared... But on the contrary... I'm filled with Joy and Excitment this kidna thing happened..

Means God thinks i'm cool... And let me have a lil taste...

But God.. please do not... DO NOT.... Put freakish dood looking at me now.. I am still learning how to shout your name in that kinda situation... U put it too soon before it learn it... Damn... I will go bonkers man.. bouncing off the walls..

LOL


-gone

 

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「 found it on 11:21 PM 」

Damn.... My heart rate's JACKED man.... It jus flew up suddenly... Man... 1000beats/min!!! (ok exaggerating)


Anxiety jus seem to open it's flood gates and it's freaking drowning me!!!!! ...


I might win, or lose... I am really scared of this kinda 50/50 shit...




Damn...





WOOOOSH!!!

At least I seem to appear alright...








God.... Rest my heart...

-Gone

 

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