「 found it on 2:15 AM 」

Ok updates..

Sudden flood of ppl


1st Ben
2nd Suquan
3rd Mervyn
4th Samuel
5th PeiXin
6th Nicholas.(flooded me)

 

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I like to do this on every 25th July..

List of ppl greeting me in descedning order

1st Benjamin
2nd Suquan(was a tight race, came in 3mins after)
3rd Mervyn




Welp... that's it for now... But cool.. hahaz.. let's see if there's more afterwards....

 

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「 found it on 4:15 AM 」

I wanna post a lil something about C.G..

Kinda sad that Nic and WX is leaving... hahaz.. But i sincerely hope that they will flourish in TP3... God surely has a plan for them..

I am really thankful for this 2 brothers, one help me by accompanying me when I am lonely, another gave me ideas that didn't make sense to me, but were brilliant ideas that i will stick with for a long long time.. (Of coz, that doesn't mean i will not be flexible)

Both has taught me alot about humility, and obidience... Opening our ears before we start opening our mouth...

Really thank God for this 2 bro... And somemore came out from CHANGKAT!!! Now as u can see, CCSS Hope members are really quality... So little children of hope... go join CCSS...Best skool in Simei... (yea...)


Oh yea... XT affirmation.. thanks for being a great listener to my trouble, though haven't been my shepherd for long.. Still did help me through some trouble... Sometimes i can be really disobidient, but thank God for you for being linient with me, and still tryin to KU KOU PUO XIN to urge to go the right path.....

Yep yep... happy brithday man..


-GONE

 

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「 found it on 1:16 AM 」

Owned

 

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「 found it on 2:09 AM 」

Well.. Jamming isn't as progressive as the previous week..Wonder wad went wrong...

Maybe prayer? .... I was sure i did enough preperations.... Perhaps becoz our band is very handicapped... But I was sure that Jonathan was playin to his best today... Hmmz..


I over strained my voice... Sounded like Nickleback after the session ended... Really wasn't happy at all lo...

ELI(can't spell his name correctly) came and said something about a chane to perform 4th of Aug... Half of myself was jumping for joy... YAY... But the other half has already been too overly exhausted and pissed off with today's session.. The group was half hearted...Rusty was the only guy that objected... I know deep inside me.. I want it... and i truely believed in my guys, i know they can do it... Hai....

I dunno la...

Tired liao... my brain lost too much blood...

-SLEEP

 

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「 found it on 12:57 AM 」

 

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「 found it on 3:27 PM 」

3:27pm 06 July 2007

Extreme Makeover Home Edition ended 27mins ago... Has been qutie a while since i sat down in front of a TV and watch a whole episode of a show or wadeva...

I always like watching stuff like Extreme Makeover, Oprah, and other destroy and construct building or extreme styling shows... Where for one 1 moment, the person, or the family seems really whacked.. Then within a short time u jus see miracles happen... I like that kinda feeling... LOL..... Not that I'm psycho la... I can't exactly explain why i like it too... Oh yea... I like Oliver's Twist(not the story, but the cook) That show rocks la... teach u how to cook, and the guy is like so stylish la.... LOL....

But I have been sitting infront of my 14inch black screen for too long.... I forgot all about Tv le.... Every morning the only I know is channel news asia, once i come back home i stone...

Today i deliberately woke up and wanted to set things right, resisted the temptation of pressing the On button on my lappy, and go do everything first... Bursh teeth, work out abit... Then i sat down as i was eating my... BRUNCH(lunch + Breakfast).... Yea I saw extreme makeover home ed... The team leader was a cool guy with a rough voice (Ty Peddington).. Today it's about a broken Afro American family... They surveyed the house first... Was like a freakin war-zone... I always thought, My house seems pretty bad, they should come... When i saw theirs... I was like.. OMG! Did your house got hit by a Tsunami or Tornado or something? Some guy la, (i didn't hear properly coz was in the kitchen...) I assume is the father.. Did a big mess to the house... The house was in such a mess.. U cant exactly get into a living room or wadeva.. U jus basically... Walk through a pathway to your rooms upstairs... And in 1 of their rooms, there's even a nail that was poking out... If the boy hadn't inform Ty Peddington... He might have got a big poke on his back... LOL...

The work went on... They got a construction family... And everything seem to be as always... Bring the house down.. bring it up.... But at certain parts I notice the family kept saying "OH GOD! OH GOD!" Etc. i thought to myself... It's USA, wad do u expect? Buddah? Of coz GOD LA!

But during day 3-4 The family's relative, father and mother of the MUM came... When they saw the skeleton of the new house(coz there wasn't a exact wall and paints or furniture yet) They went something like "OH MY GOD!" "THANK GOD! THIS IS GOD'S BLESSINGS!" Or soemthing like that.. .something to do with blessings... Then i was starting to be convinced that this is a rather good Christian family.....

Then...

The house is done, the family back.... The family got really crazy.. The elder son was so big in size, he was jumping and hugging his mum, from the screen, it looked as if the mum was suffocating... LOL... They got it.. "WOAH, THIS IS NOT OUR HOUSE and stuff" Well.... Ok... That always happens right? If they renovate my place, i'll prolly say the same too... But the whole house was made to perfect fit the itnerested of the 2 sons and the mum... Mum likes the tropics, elder son wants to be architect, younger son wants to be a stage performer... So they basically have the room of their dreams... literally... They went to the back yard... Go kart... COOL.... Through out, they occasional "Oh GOD! THANK GOD" Yelps... Ok...

But wad really raised blew me off was when the constrcution company came and kinda like intro themself to the family.. Then they say... "we want the 2 children to do well in school, so we are giving them a scholarship" Now... THE MUM RAISED HER HAND UP... and kinda whispered like a prayer.. and that was when she really started to brawl, and repeatedly thank God and stuff...

I realized that the MUM's main concern wasn't really about the beautiful house and stuff... But it was all about the children's future... U can jus note the difference.... She was really thanking God etc.. She almost went to her knees i guess... Then the show ended jus about there...

I realized why they're the deserving family.. The sons want the mum to have a room, and the mum's main concern is not about heir luxury, but is all about her sons... I thought, aww man.. that's love... that's the unconditional love in the family man..

And it's kinda funny... I was reminded of my mum also.... hahaz.. She changed dramatically after coming to know God... And she's really doing everything she can for the family and me... kinda sad that she's our family's stable bread winner... My dad's fending for himself... Hahaz.. Not that he sucks or anything (if anybody insults my dad... I will crack your skull, spoon your brain out and eat it as snack)... but he's jus having a rough time.. But he's getting better... But my mum.. hahaz.. I jus pissed her off by blowing my bill.... 50 bucks i think... that's bad...

I think i'll use my pay to pay for the bill this time round..

Even though it's a bright sunny day...I bet i can still may a nostalgic, melacholic prayer for my mum...

God bless my mum with good health alright? And anoint me as a son to quickly relieve her burden.. And for her sake... Please give me the gift of discernment whenever i am abot blow my usage of the handphone on that day... :P

Jeus name I pray..


-Amen


PS: TML's 070707!!!! That's like my favorite number la!! Must wear green!! Save the planet!!! LOL... not sure wad we can do.. But is cool to see afew hundred thousand green people walking around singaproe tomorrow... hahahaz...

 

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I have not much to whine about C.G today..

Thought everything went on pretty well, smooth and sweet

The atmosphere was loving...

Although i didn't take major roles... I still learned alot by watch the others do it.... learned alot from Nick....

Hahahaz...


My crazy idea for holy comm..... I hope it worked.... should impact the guys i hope....

It's not an idea of insult... Or neither should anybody treat it like a color spectacle session or wadeva..

We're all rather matured here... And the idea here is to destroy the barriers that blocks us from working together as a group..

Like it or not... Even if there's a teaching on 1ness... Even our big strong Paul in the bible needed disciples and teachers to help... He was made famous by his team... David had his mighty man, Mosses has his Tribe Leaders... U can't finish the list

And usually people who stumble.... Are those who fail to be interdependednt.... I was really thinking about it... Communion... wad does it mean? Went to the net and search all over... Hmmmz....

I sat down... brainstormed non stop for 10 mins.... I only came up with one conclusion... Communion simply means a time to fellowship... But i didn't quite have the word fellowship... I didn't know the exact word till Ben used it later... hahaz... But i was thinking like.... HOMIE, FAMILY, GROUP, BIG HUG, GROUP....

Anythin that has to do with doing it a group... Holy comm is a essential.. Almost like a MUST BLOODY DO, thing when we are in a group...

So if we take holy comm, and still hate our brother beside us, or we take it as though it's for ourself only... we're not doing it at all.. we're jus tryin to fill our stomach with that small piece of bread... But as man.... That isn't like a drop in my tummy... it jus disappears...

LOL...

basically u get my drift la..

lol..




-GONEZ

 

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「 found it on 12:45 AM 」

I am feeling 50 different kinds of fucked up now..

Doesn't mean i need somebody to identify with my emotions.. And cry, or pray over it..

I need time to cool down...

I know I am better than this

I just recieved the good news about being picked to work in a cafe... I am glad that happened...

I wanna stay true to my word... Not 1 bad event can spoil my whole day of good

I dun wanan stay fucked up...

Lagi kenna bang by car...

I dunno wad i can do now... ARGH!!!!

I know sitting in front of the com is not the best option... But still... I can't find better ways to vent this emotional rampage..


How?

-Gone

 

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「 found it on 12:45 AM 」

Why do people have facets?

Why do I have it too?

Hahaz, I dun mean i act totally differently between people... But just that sometimes.... It seems like I just can't bring myself to be myself...

Truth is, to some people, I am not as weak as u think, and to others, I am not as strong also..

Sometimes this becomes a habit, and after acting a certain manner, after being left alone... When i have time to talk to myself and God... I start to think... "HEY! Why u do that? Are u really that?" Etc.

I'll continue to pray about it..


^_^

 

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「 found it on 3:00 AM 」

A noble man makes noble plans

I need to plan for my month.... Time's running out... Very close to them time i need to pay for my remodule...

Chiong ah....

Effective planning needed..

 

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「 found it on 4:08 AM 」

Welp... I didn't go to service today... Has been quite a while since I last missed service.... But was my granny's birthday.. And i really wanted to show her i appreciated.... ha..

Woke up pretty late... Guess i repaid all my sleep debt... That... last night... felt like it's still ringing in my head... Started to have some pretty wild thoughts.... Getting a lil too sesitive le bah...

Actually was suppose to go out at quite an early time.. But my granny fallen ill... Had headache... So.... Everything got pushed... pushed back so much.... we end up leavin house at 7plus....

Our initial destination was Tampines Mall, but for some crazy assed reason... it's jammed... So... We left, my mum suggested that to go to the Seafood store at the coffeeshop near TP... (Thanks to my reccomendation that is) Even though the meal last around 45 mins... I really cherished the time.... Everybody is either or tired... But still... it's rare that my family sits together as a family... My mum kept asking me to pray for my dad... Coz he's in the middle of a deal... I'm not sure if it's a success yet... But moments after the dinner, it sounded like the negotiations failed.... My dad's strategizing for another alternative... Lord please help him...

My mum also "prophecied" that the family will become closer this time, and will have more times like this... I dun think she has anything planned in her.. But i am really driven by that goal..

Later i got back, talked to my mum abit, prayed wit my mum for my dad again... Then I left for Alvin's place... Play his games....

THIS GUY AH!!! I USE MORE THAN 1/2 HOUR TO BUILD MY SIMS CHARACTER AND HOUSE.... HE 1 CLICK EVERYTHING GONE!!! ARGH!!!!

Then i went to satify myself with battlefield 2142.... Actually not satifying... I was a freefrag to the online gamers...They damn pro!!! Sob.... But in 1 of the rounds, i managed to find a stratgic spot, and kill 3 people, they dun seem to know where i'm from.... Until a air-strike nearby knock me out... then... gone... LOL

Then after we fooled around in his room, wrestle each other and stuff... was kinda whacked...

yea...


Tomorrow's gonna be CTR... hope i learn something there... and dear contacts.. please reply me!!! Hope something good comes out of the meeting also... ha...




-Gone.

 

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