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2:43am 07 March 07

I have been sleepin 5 hours each day for the past 3 days... I think i will eventually screw myself up.... My old problems like my aching back seem to become more prominent this few days... And i seriously don't think it's a good sign.

I recently got involved in some kinda shit. I can't say anybody implicated me into it, it was just me who willingly walked in without giving much of a damn about what I can really do to the situation.... Turns out, I landed myself in a familiar place, and the whole thing.... though people said "Thanks for your help," and shit... I felt it was a total fiasco....

Seems like it's a trend, but if I had been more pro-active and responsible on my work.. I won't be where I am tonight... Struggling to stay awake with a coffee that taste a lil crazy at this current moment... Perhaps I am not such a good coffee maker afterall... hahaz....

It's precisely because I'm a leader and servant, and also becoz I am part of the minority that seeks to walk the road less traveled by.... I need to keep myself way above waters, and rely on God's strength even more.....

I am weak by nature, so i need to rely on you doubly.... ^_^

Learning how to be teachable.... It's pretty amazing, and ironic how God can use not only just use your dream time, or get somebody to talk to you to get his message across... I recently fell into a state of decline for 2 weeks... And i prayed.... God gave me a sign instantly, in such away that if I wasn't sensitive to my surroundings, I would have let it slipped away...

Complacency has got the better of me these days, and right after I prayed, seems that God is kicking me in the ass shouting "Let's get to work." Though the kick pretty painful... I still smile back at him, knowing that he's not gonna screw me up... I can read it from the twinkle of his eye...

Ok back to work...


Lord Bless my project work that it turns out well, and pray that you grant me strength to combat the hinderence of my growth...



-Zzzzzzzz.... ARGH!!! WORK!!!!

 

The End?