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「 found it on 1:03 AM 」

1:04am 12 Feb 2007


In my attempt to become a as good as possible leader, I was reminded of how much a SCUM I was by some unforseen circumstance....

How am I suppose to climb out of this? Fustration creeps in....


It dosen't help when you're faced with a heart temptation on the same day... I almost makes u wanna break down altogether... But you just gotta hold it together.

I dunno, perhaps i don't have the right to be fustrated afterall...

I prayed the prayer during service that I wanna keep this progression, and not be discouraged by the reminder.... I haven't been a SCUM for quite a while, I wanna step out of my reputation for being a lousy, retarded, irresponsible, scum of the earth standard kinda leader...




-zzzzzz


Perhaps i was being a lil too critical.... But no matter how hard it is... I am willing to grow... I wanna keep that faith till the end...

Sheesh

 

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「 found it on 12:04 AM 」

00:02 10th Feb

Cool down..... I juz lost like 2 of my friends...Not coming tml... offline...

Ha, and to think I was suppose to have a fun filled friday... I wonder wad did I do to screw it up juz hours before the End of Day...

God, u muz stop this nonsense at once... I hate problems and expectations haunting me, when i forget to meet them... So no more iresspnsiblity for CHRIST'S SAKE....

sheesh.....


Okok... cool down now..... I am getting a lil sweaty here.... Maybe i should take another shower before i turn in.... I dun want my bed to smell like a rotting GAROUPA....



-Gonez...

 

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「 found it on 11:02 PM 」

09th Feb 2007 11:05pm

I had class, late for 1.5hrs... Came during the break... I juz wanted to uphold to promise to deliver the goods to them.... But then again.... I didn't totally fufil my promise..... Perhaps 75% of it... But then again... In life... there's not such thing as a 75% accomplisment..... It's 100% or 0%..

I walked through the next 1hr of class, talking about leadership styles.....
I was given a CASE STUDY.... Then the teacher explained the question with a cute little.......
Digram, with "Relationship with Employees" as the Y axis, and "Production of company" as the X..

There were several styles... And afta going through a half past 6 lesson on the 4humors, I can grasp the concept pretty easily....
1st Was Choleric, Melancholy, Focus on work, focus on quality,relationship with employees is a extra curricular activity...

2nd was a Sanguiene.. Believes that every employee should have the right to speak in the company. Have good relationship with his employees, though makes effort to stroll around the office to check on their employee's progress, but chooses to avoid "FIRING(correcting)" the employee.

3rd I don't know where that ass should be in... He's choleric in expecting his employee's work, but is phlegmatic as a manager.... And seem to wanna dodge the "DRINK TEA" session with his boss..... I dun even know why he's a manager....

The teacher asked... "WHO WOULD U LIKE TO WORK WITH?"
Not surprisingly, with a class full of phelgs and sangs.... Most of them chose no.2
As a sanguiene myself, and also now a half past 6 CL(a)... I tot no 2. is a pretty cool guy, so i rushed to raise my hand too.. Turns out, he has the most employee loyalty and etc. But hardly ever meets deadline.... His Production was at 1! (being 1 the weakest, and 10 the strongest)

When i realize 2 of my classmates chose no.1, i kinda stopped and think... Wad kinda bummer am I.... I chose No.2 Becoz i felt that i can really identify with his character.... But then, it hinders production..... I guess that has to be my major flaw.... I'm already working in a eternal Organization, which in my opinion, dun seem to have a big difference in organization structure with the outside world.....

I sat there for a moment, thinking to myself, "How can i be perhaps 10 in relationship, but be like 5-7 on production?" Then all of a sudden "Alright u can go now.." Feeling a lil bewildered, i shouted, "That's it?" Then she answered "Yea, finish! If u dun have questions u can go now.." I was hoping like she might give some criticisms on each character, so i can kinda kneed my methods to perfection... LOL.... Guess i have to do it myself..

I had a quick lunch with 1 of my mates, then i left for home... Played like 3rounds of NFS(C), then i took a power nap..... I was rudely awaken by Su Quan when he messaged me at 3pm, "finish class" I was like... "HUH!!!!! I haven't napped enough..." I kinda fell back asleep... Woke up at 3:30.. i was like WTF?!?!?!?! I bathed... and flew out of my house.... Deep inside of me, i was kinda cursing at myself... "WHY SUCCUMB TO THE TEMPTATION OF PLAYING XBOX?! SEE YOU'RE LATE! WAD VOW DID U MAKE? NOT TO BE LATE... LOOK!!!!"
I ran, and ran.... Pant a lil.... Thank God for the wind... I didn't sweat much... Then i saw BEN, XT, CT and his CG... they were sharing christ... I felt ashamed when I met Ben's eyes... "where are you going?" He asked.... I felt like as if something turned in my stomach... "I.... I am going to meet su quan" I answered... Sounds a lil gay.... I kinda like made the, i am rushing off action... and ran to meet su quan... He was in the com area of TP library... Thank God he has a com to keep him company... Or else i would have felt even worst... hahahaz...
I urged him to go meet CT they all... and Thank god for that.... We chilled out at Mensa 2... And afta much discussion and planning, and err.... i dunno... Me and CT decided to have our hair cut at some unheard shop opposite TP, thanks to Su Quan reccomendations....

REALLY!! THANK HIM!!!! The hair cut took a freaking 40mins per person!!!!! WTF?!?!?!? And the lady keep pressing my ear down, really annoyed me... "I have a big ears, and they're sensitive... so please stop pressing it down... I might grow another inch!!"
But turns out.... they did a STUNNING JOB.... it was really nice... I didn't expect that kinda standard to come out of an unheard hairdresser... But the price stunned me even more.... "14bucks," ok fine..... "+5 becoz of CNY season" !!!!!!!!!!! I had the WTF look..... !!!!! "WAD THE CRAP 5 bucks?!?!?!?! I CAN BUY 2 NAAN with 5 BUCKS!!!!"
Wanna keep my cool composure, I dashingly (is there such a word?) pull out 2 red notes.... in my heart "OH THE PAIN!!!"
We stepped out of the store.. The sun was already setting.... We spend a stunning 1.5hrs IN THE HAIRDRESSER.... And my dream of having Muthu's for dinner has been dashed.... Oh well...... Thank god for Su Quan... He suggested 85market.... We basically went there and had very nice bowl of Ba Chor Mee (Minced meat noodle). Had a nice drink... chat... Then we left to take a bus....

I came home... Thinking to myself... "aww gosh... TML how am I suppose to enjoy the arcades?!" Then ben called...... That's when i realized how my irresponsibility got the better of me again... "Do you know it's V Day ESS?" I replied flatly, "yea." "How's the invites going on?" "Aww, it's not so good la... My friends not coming" The next question stunned me, "wad about your group?" In my heart i was stabbing myself already..... For a moment I was drawn back to the OB lecture, and I started to think, "WHAT A BUMMER U ARE!!!!"
I couldn't answer Ben's question.... Then I learnt something from a book i got from NLB.... I pushed my pride into my anus, and I said, "sorry" because very obviously, my group F***ing up the invite is thanks to MR.STEWART TAN's lack of emphasis in the importance of the ESS. I have juz screwed up big time... I didn't need ben to tell me "Once V-DAY ess is gone, it's not coming back" Afta putting down the fone call, I did some random stuff... then now, i telling myself... U BETTER do all u can WITHIN THIS FEW HOURS

 

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「 found it on 7:06 PM 」

8th feb 07 7:05pm

It's a warm and clear evening, clad in my ver expensive $3.50 pants, and soem random shirt my sister got me from thailand.. i sit here in the chambers of ILAW writing this blog, while Su Quan's busy printing my class notes.....

$$$$$$$

I think it's driving Su Quan nuts, he'll have to print i guess another 20 Sets of 11page double sided notes.... He's quite patient there.... Very quiet......... Maybe he's waiting for me to treat him to Prata.....

In the midst of this "enjoyable" printing process, i can't help but start to worry about my HR project.... Which now is in the hands of my 2 Fud Rockers classmates.... I wonder what they'll do the project, but still thank God for them... They did the harder parts of the project, which comes back to the point, which is... IF THEY SCREW UP.... WE FAIL......

Hmmz.... I still have half hour or maybe even an hour to blog here.... What else should i talk about?

AH YES! i had CG yesterday.. A 5man CG without Ben's survilence.... I guess it went pretty well, apart from the obviously draggy and gibberish SD i made.... I guess the guys caught my dift... And i'm really glad that some of them are trying to make the effort to change, while others are startin to get their brain cells working on how they can serve more...

Thanks GOD for them..

Ok this may seem really awkward but I'm gonna end my blog here, and help Su Quan with the printing... lol....


-GOnez

 

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「 found it on 12:17 AM 」

06th February 2007

I'm having a lil headache.... Muz be the cold swim, and excess amount of food in my stomach.... SOme muz have went up my brain...

It's a lil belated... But this is my errr.. I think they call it affirmation, but i prefer to call it revision of Ben so far.

I know Ben for I guess 2.5Years already.... Our friendship has always been a roller coaster one..... I still remb the time I met him at the basketball court... I thought he'll juz be another friend of mine, from my already flooded list of friends....
Little did I know he'll stand out, and turn out to be the person that brought me to know of not only eternal life, and also lotsa pressure, which made me from a guy who use to have backup, and have "older god brothers" as advisors, to someone who now becomes the advisor and friend to others.... I guess he's the chief architect of all these pruning, and training...

I'm really impressed and touched till this day, when the time i became like the crappiest guy on earth... I still had him to lean on.. To moan to... He dun seem to care whether I'm the most popular guy, or the shittiest guy who got stomped... He still regarded me with high esteem.. And from time to time, made slow efforts to trim my pride...

Though until this day, he hasn't been successful in cutting down all the excess pride, I tell u, he has been a faithful brother, not juz the CHRISTIAN kinda brother, a real thick and thin..

Coming to think of it.... this year... We tried to boil each other's blood more often then previous times....Wa really sorry for trying to drive u up the wall....
*note: the least he bothers to drive me up the wall, and hasn't lose hope on me... so muz thank him.
But i really saw him grow... He use to be the either blend to wall, or will kick u till u reach thailand kinda guy.... Right now he's a leader i regard with high esteem, and he has become more sanguine... He's become the patriach of the guys man.... So Ben u better keep growing....

I wanna thank this brother for being a brother and architecting the most painstaking but also the most amazing year of my life....
Thanks for also being there when i faced dryness in spirit, and down in confidence... U're a good brother



Have a great trip in Malaysia... Thank God for u at Hope M'sia....
And buy my durain toothepaste....

-BEN The Cow

 

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「 found it on 1:57 AM 」

2nd February 2007 1:56am


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN!!! HAPPY 19th!

Have a nice stay on earth and may all your dreams come true....



LOL!




HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BROTHER....




-Gonez

 

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