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1:22am 11Jan 2007

This week has been a pretty tiring week for me....Or rather for many of the guys.... but especially for me and chit meng.. :p

I think i slept an average about 5 hrs for the pass 3days.... Ok.... Make it 4days.... It's 1:25am now... LOL

I was preparing a teaching till the wee hours yest night.... I felt the commitment to do on "Victory in 2007" Buti've neva done anything like that.... I was kinda confused.. I spent perhaps 2hrs playing in mind how the whole SD will be like... From the most responsive.. Till the worst that can happen.... But afta 2hrs... I realize all those random thoughts and scribbling were pretty useless....
I did a pretty neat script... In my mind I was really hoping to do alot better than the previous week..... But truth is, I am extremely nervous.. I had no idea wad to TEACH... becoz goals is more like a discussion subject......

Afta a miserable 4hrs sleep... I woke up... I was really thinking of not going to school.... I've neva felt this way for a long time.. But i woke up with a contracting head... I knew that i muz be pretty darn tired.... But I told myself "Others guys worked hard on their projs and commitment, and they're also dragging their bodies and giving their best in class... U should too.. besides.. it's only a few hours.."
I kinda whine abit... Then i got to bath.... Then left for school... For some reason, the weather felt really fine... I stood for the next 45mins, becoz both the bus and MRT is filled with people....
Thank god, i arrived in school within the 15mins buffer time.... And thank god that the book sellers are still around... it's the 1st text book i've bought after going through 3 different modules... I have to find a way to hunt for the next 2...

I prayed a lil... And God really went to work... The irritation in my head was gone for a moment.. I kept myself pretty awake for the first half... I even presented some nonsense becoz the guys in my group are a lil too gay to do it...
2nd half wasn't so good... The effects were starting to come back, and they brought along lathargy...

Afta skool, it rained... I met Mervyn coz he wanted to check some of my skool courses out.... Well thank God for him to follow me down to CMPB to clarify my worries about my NS...

Afta that basically.. I went home.. But the journey was amazingly agaonizing and long... The bus came like 15mins afta i waited... And a whole bunch of pasir ris and ping yi kids boarded the bus... By the time i arrive back.... 3:40....

I opened my lappy awhile.. Tried to gather my thoughts to do a lil more for the SD... i remb around 4:16 i couldn'at take it anymore... I decided to take a power nap... I was so dead beat... I set the alarm clock at 5, but i dun remb wad i did... I woke up at 5:15.. I was like SHIT!!!!! I got up... went to shower... And it kinda hurt your body when u try to wake yourself out of the dreamy sleepy state.... it's the twice it happened... During my bath, thank god... He gave me ideas of giving testimonies of other people... I thought of Rick warren... I eventually print out a scrambled messed up script... And left CG..

I was about 10 mins late, and Chit Meng couldn't make it.. I guess he broke already... He has been pushing himself till the limits for the past few days..

Afta some waiting etc, we started the CG..... I wanted to gather the guys... But some accident happend... I was strucked hard on my nose, i wouldn't elaborate wad happened... Then for the first time I can remember in my life.... I had a nose bleed.... I was clearly shocked... It was so severe that i saw a drop, land on the floor... I tot it was juz some scratch.. But it continue to bleed... I was in a mixture of fear, anger, and worry... But i didn't want the guys to worry about me... I did my very best to keep my cool.... But in me, i'm really paranoid... Wad if my nose if crooked? Or wad if it damages the function of my nose?! U might think i'm gay.. But right now, i'm still a lil worried.... Becoz i am suffering from a headache...

I cleaned up... I was a lil dizzy.. But i joined in the poison ball doging game anyway.... It was pretty fun... We had quite a crappy "teamwork" forfeit also... (Thanks ah lancaster.....) Rusty was punished also... (HUO GAI!) lol.... We did some stupid stuff.....

Then we had SD...... I really paniced... I'm dizzy.. And nobody functions well when they're dizzy.. especially when u're tryin to use your brain to teach... I looked at my script... But, as a matter fact, i was even reading it... I seem to be playing "God bless me in this SD, grant me the words" in my mind.... I folded the script and started.....

Pretty amazingly....... I felt pretty convicted..... I guess my brain is really malfunctioning...(I kept saying Warren Buffet, but I was tryin to talk about Rick Warren) But nevertheless i spoke with every ounce of enthusiasm i have.... I tried my best to tell them about my vision that TP guys will become the most exciting, the cream of the crop group in WHOLE OF TERTIARY... I used Ben's testi (bike) to speak to them about mainly Matthew 6:31-33 and Joshua 3.. I wanted to keep it interative.. I really hope they get wad i'm saying... During prayer.... I felt the holy spirit around me... And I prayed several times, and for the first time... I said something like"God wants to speak to you" kinda thing.... It has been quite a while since i felt the spirit moving in my body so powerfully....

Afta all that we had dinner.... at................. PRATA SHOP!!! YAY!! But I had lil appetite, maybe becoz i ate a lil before i came out... I felt like i overate afta i finished the puri. I left like 3 mouth worth of puri on the plate, and kinda breathe in breathe out... Afarid to get indigestion again.. .LOL

Overall... the day was pretty fantastic... I set many goals during the SD... I hope that me and my guys all will try their very best to follow through and make 2007, a really significant year....


-Gonez

 

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