「 found it on 12:02 AM 」

Oct 5 11:56

Juz mins away from Friday.. Err.... got skool tml.. sianz..

Had CG about 3hours ago??? heh... I was leading SD... man... OMFG man...

Ben told me to lead it a week ago... I thought he was kidding... Until Rusty confirmed that i will lead SD 2days ago... Wa... Freakish...
I always tot SD should be lead by the CLs or ULs... They read the bible man.... They approached me... (Somebody who is still struggling through Book of John, and only completed the book of Matthew!!)

It has to be God challenging me... But i felt like i failed... I left the work till the very last min... My laziness made the quality of the SD very lousy......

I was panicky... and pretty remourseful... and to make things worse... Nel had to come.... I was really inconfident, and now with added pressure from a Leader.... Not that Nel is scary or anything... I feel abit put on stage... and the leaders, even Ben.. Sorta make me feel fuzzy and weird....

God is probably testing me... Really drilling, moulding me to push furthur out of my comfort zone... I'm thankful that the people were all trying their best to hear me out... I didn't noe wad i was saying... I dun even think wad i say impacts me at all.. I felt I wasting away the verses... heh... But thank god for those great people...

Ben wants me to lead again next week.. I wanna see a breakthrough in that area... Guess I'll tell him YES tml or smth... hahaha.. Do wad i preached today... Commit to god to get a breakthorugh... ^_^

OH YEA!!


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LIK CHOON!!!! (3rd Oct 1989)

GOD BLESS U... Wonderful brother u are.... I wanna see u grow.. ^_^






-CIAOZ... (ARGH!!! SCHOOL!!?!?!?!)

 

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