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20th October 12:42am

Man.. I tell u guys... I'M FAGGED OUT MAN!!!! I haven't got this feeling for a damn long while...

I woke up at 6:15 in the morn.. Waited for ben to pass me my long-sleeves (which i didn't wear eventually), he came at about 7.. During the 45 mins... I was fighting against one of the most prevalent demons of all time, laziness, and excuses.. I knew i slept at 2am in the morn.. 4 hours is surely not enough for me, especially when i only had 6 hours the day before...

My mind starting pumping excuses.. "Maybe u can go for the 5pm one.." , "Nobody called u yet, go back to sleep.. U will wake up by 7." , "Later u gotta lead SD, so u need sleep, dun go.. Many people will not go too.." I hollard "NO! I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR THE GROUP AND MYSELF" I continued "GET UP!! GET UP!!! U might get great contacts!! SO NOW GET UP!"
Surprisingly.. I got up.. Switched on the water heater.. And practically juz sat outside... Stoning... I was bloody sleepy... I felt a lil grouchy.. Knowing that the past 4hrs were my last hours of sleep for the day... I was damn pissed.. I was pretty reluctant to go anywhere.. Juz wanna sleep...

But lalala li la... Eventually i reached TP at 7:32am? I was glad i was there... I was still a lil grouchy.. Empty stomach etc. Ben ask me to pray, i still give him attitude sia... :p But thank god... I got 8 people to fill up my form... And among them... There were 2 potentials... I was really glad I was there.. Thank god for that..

Then we had to rush for the Microsoft Seminar.. The annoyance from the "Excuses-demon" really pissed me off... It kept printing stuff in my mind "U won't get sleep if u go!" , "U haven't got breakfast!" Ben got steak, I got chicken chop.. And we basically juz try to gorge our self with the western delicacies in a 15mins ride... IT SERIOUSLY ISN'T FUN... I got a lil attitude.. But i felt kinda dumb... Knock myself out of it...

LALALALA... We're at Mircrosoft... I'm pretty amazed by the building high tech sercurity and express lifts.. 21 floor.. We went up.. And i was greeted by quite a sight when i look out Microsoft HQ's windows.. LOL...

We got into the seminar... It was crowded wif ppl.. And i wasn't impressed by the speaker's presentation.. We were made to seat down at the worst of place(the front row). It's like so obvious if i doze off... Wad to do... Sheesh...
But i got a lil reward... I was amazed by the 2 microsoft presenters... They sound like they were either from Aust or US, but they were actually Chinese, or Hong Kongers... 1 of them, named Chewy has a cool method in marketing himself.. I thought he's really brave to even make t-shirts "HIRE CHEWY.COM" if i were in his shoe I wouldn't wanna attract so much attention to myself.... Lol..
He also showed us this cool thing called MSN-Bots... I think it's a great method to send information to ppl as they ask Qs, and the bot automatically generates the desired answer that u have already pre-generated.. Great for promoting yourself, and maybe it can be useful to the church too.. hahahahz... (microsoft is rich too... If u manage to get in.. Wipe all the drinks and food u can find.. IT'S FREE!!)

Then me and Rusty left for Tampines... I actually wanted to go his place afta he finish shepherding, but I eneded up meeting Wei Siang to go my place for a shower instead... I needed a shower badly.. I was sweating thanks to the hot and dry weather.. We played a round of Winnin 11 - 9, he beat me with a golden goal.. LOL..

Then we kinda lagged.. Slowly made our way to bedok for a lil snack, then Esplanade... In the MRT... I felt really bad, I wasn't walking straight anymore... I found a space of the floor, i sat down.. And very soon, somehow i knocked off till I hit something in the cart when it went underground...

I wasn't so sure if i could lead SD... My brain was slow, almost dead... I juz wrote the stuff chronologically... I kept asking god.. "Please dun make me srew up!!" It didn't change... I juz staggerd my way to Esplanade with Wei Siang..
As soon as i arrived I told ben "WA! I'm not in shape to lead SD"

So we lagged abit, waited for the rest to come... And yea start.. I was glad that i made Lancaster and RObin in charge of games... Even though i was darn tired.. I had a good time playing their game.. THANK GOD FOR THEM....

Then we had a off-beat praise.. Then Worship... This was when i realize the bad haze has caused a blocked nose.. I had problem singing... And i was darn tired.. it really sucks... When 2nd song "Consuming Fire" started... I had a lil fear in my heart.. I was afraid I will not be able to minister to the guys through my SD.. I won't know wad i will be saying by then... I prayed hard... I tried hard to pray...

Then God did some cool stuff.............

He reminded me of this thing "People gave me a chance to know god. And it's right for us to give others a chance.. We dun wanna see people goin to hell, w/o knowing wad heaven really is in the bible" I forgot where i heard this.. Then I remb the goal set by me and Ben. The goal to INVOKE 21 people in TP Guys by December.. Then God gave me this vision "11 apostles.." I think he said smth like "11 CLs in TP guys, is not very big.. TP has a few thousand guys... 11 CLS will not even be sufficient to lead the guys" "U have a big group to conquer out there.. Go for it convict them with this goal" I think he told me all this... I was so overwhelmed... I felt like Neo when he destroyed Smith at the last scene.. A powerful surge of energy came through me... Before i knew it.. I was kneeling.. And waving to the skies.. THough my nose was still blocked.. I sing or shouted as loudly as I could "STIR IT UP IN OUR HEARTS LORD... Passion for you name!" I felt so convicted.. I sang and kinda lead the guys singing that more than 5 times.

When the Worship end.. I felt convicted to burst out telling them wad I felt.. I wasn't sure if they got my drift.. But I felt extremely overwhelmed.. Far exceeded the desire i had when i was a new believer... I guess it's becoz i really relied on god.. I didn't use any of the verses i wrote.. I juz quote wadeva i remb.. And took them through a 10-15min SD.. Actually, it wasn't a SD... I was trying to convict the guys... I was really relying on God... I felt even higher than the time I got mervyn into the family.. I was convicted to serve.. It's a kinda ability i muz learn to harness.... Not to only seek God's plan... But also to seek his strength... He reminded of this passage as i closed my SD, on the Tired and Weary. I realize the weaker I am, the more god did through me.. SImply becoz i relied on him alot more... With him, i juz burst out.. If i didn't ask for his help and juz go ahead with me SD... I believe it will be as disatrous as usual....


GUYS.. I encourage to really pray for his strength.. Not for juz basic miracles, but in all circumstances.... It's something i really need to learn how to do... The feelin of the holy spirit crashing through my body was a great experience.. Those that haven't experience it.. Desire it... Seriously... Let the holy spirit lead u, dun be fooled by the heart... XY reminded me "often the heart tells u things u think the Holy Spirit is saying, as a matter fact.. HS is always there.. Juz seek & shall find"


Ok tired now... seriously..



Nightz.

 

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